Farewell Trudy

Trudy would be 14 this March. She finally took her last breath this morning.

Trudy (Snowball’s first daughter) had been suffering kidney disease and partial blindness for about 13 months. Although I managed to stabilize her kidney condition through special diets and Chinese herbs but her health deteriorated drastically two weeks ago.

Last night she could barely stand and her heart beat was irregular. It hurt me so much to see her not responding to my touch. Then I knew it’s time to let her go in peace. It was for my own selfish reasons (one was wanting her to spend this Christmas with us); I had kept her longer than “required.”

Despite having gone through numerous dog euthanasia procedures, I still could not manage my emotions well. Trudy went limp within 2 seconds after Phenobarbital was administered, no signs of struggle nor any electrical current ran through her body; just as the way she lived her life—fuss free girl.

After arranged her cremation day, I decided to walk home instead of getting in the car with T. I don’t know how many miles I walked; all I know it took me 2 hours and 50 minutes to reach home. I prefer to deal with grieve solitary, at least in the beginning.

Although I felt better after the long walk, it didn’t make it easier for me to see Snowball looking for Trudy in every room. He sniffed at her blanket and stared at the opened door. Only much later, Zody, Rudy, and Rovy made the connection and stayed next to him at the door.

I will be taking a few days off from blogging. Posting will resume soon after. Till the next post, be well.